Goal achieved

I have been seriously thinking about quitting my second job, the reasons being:

My client scratches, beats, tears, jumps out windows, has to be restrained for hours on end, makes eyes bleed, cuts, plays mind games, will do anything for attention etc.
I have tried everything to show her I love her (and I truly do) but it is not enough and I cannot handle these behaviors on a weekly basis. Even though I only work there once a week and at ATEC 5 days a week. I feel as though I am not making a difference and need a break, working 6 days a week isn't good for anyone especially when I have school as well. I need to have a day to myself and Sunday doesn't count 'cause that one's for the Lord, I need to be able to take off for a weekend or go to friends parties on Saturday nights without having to stress about who is going to cover my 15 hour shift with a notoriously difficult client overnight. I work on average a week 51 hours, that is not including school hours. I think I deserve a little me time!

So I put in my two weeks today, though I did remain on the sub list so I can pick and choose if I want to work or not at other houses when they call, I am fully trained and wouldn't want that to be wasted also I will probably welcome extra $ during the months ahead.

One day last spring, the girl living next door to the house I was working at had her Cockatiel out of it's cage and was playing with it. The bird was trained and was affectionate to it's owner, the girl walked outside for a moment and left the bird on a perch. The door had been left open long enough for this bird to make the decision to fly out, and it did without looking back. I remember seeing it dart out through the door and soar through the air really fast, in such a way I would have thought it did that sort of thing everyday. The girl was screaming after her bird and panicking for it, I was so happy and I remember counter yelling at the bird to GO GO GO! I was so excited to see it fly away, for hours after I could hear it chirping happily on some power line or tree. It never came back. Some days I feel like the bird, like when I signed up for the Mexico trip, or when I was the first female to do stand up at comedy sports, when I'm on a bike and going down a big hill, and when I quit jobs for the sake of my own happiness.

Today is much better, I think these trials have sort of reset me, and I have such a grateful heart towards the Lord for helping me through it all. Not that I am anticipating it to be all over but I definitely feel stronger.

My plans are to get a good bike, and go for long night rides around Provo, I can't wait!