Dear Mexico.

Because of your extreme violence and drug trafficking, my trip to your country has been canceled due to the dangers involved. Because of your ignorance I cannot serve your people, the people who have been looking forward to this for almost year. Because of the savagery, your own kin have lost the hope for a better future, was it worth it?

I got this email today:

"When it comes down to it, we have canceled this trip for your safety.  Alexis Palmer (the Center Director) and I met with our International Center yesterday morning to discuss some concerns regarding this trip.  Their primary concern (which we share) is that a Travel Alert Watch has been moved to a Travel Alert Warning and was extended in Mexico until May 12th.  We do not feel comfortable endorsing a trip to a country with such a warning from the State Department and our Institutional International Office.  Chances are that we would have been very safe as a group and that we would have returned incident-free.  However, if something did indeed happen, we don't know how we can explain to a parent, or anyone else for that matter, that we chose to ignore the warnings from the US State Department and our International Center."

The only good thing about this is I will be getting a full refund, I will be praying to figure out what the Lord wants me to do with it.

I am bitterly disappointed, though I have been more so in my life. This just comes at a really hard time for me right now. I just feel like I am failing my own life.