Thoughts

I like blogging because it's a space where I can place my thoughts, sometimes the same deep thoughts circle round and round for days and I can't make room for more unless I unload.

There was a time where I just let everything go. I didn't care what I looked like in pictures, I didn't care that I made faces or that some people SOME actually didn't like me. Now I am more conservative, more conscious, more aware, more active, and happier. For the first time I am happy with who I am as a person and most days I know who I am, I hope this feeling stays.

There are at this moment two paths for me, one is as predictable as an Arizona road. Straight, black top and bright blue sky, the sharp angled triangle pointing my way to a very average life full of manicured lawns and pleasant neighbors. The other path is very unpredictable full of curves and storms, I almost imagine this path in a deep wood and you can only see so far before it changes drastically and all you have is faith. This life is so unpredictable and full of mystery.

I have always liked the woods.  :)


I dropped off the camera to be cleaned, so my pictures will from now on be much clearer. I have decided to keep this one for a bit longer, it's durable and it was at the top of the world with me so I am now officially bonded to it but it's going to take a couple of weeks to get back...

The Carr's have had their big family reunion. And once again I was having issues with everyone being here all at once. I need time to mentally prepare myself for such occasions, because they are so grand and wonderful. I tend to chicken out last minute and hide out over at friends houses or stay out late. I managed to spend the entire day with the family yesterday and it was one of the best days, I loved every minute of it.
The children in this family range from infant to 19, they are all amazing and I have had so much fun playing with them. I also realized I have enough energy to keep up with them all! So yaya to me.


Life is good.