New life

I have been living in the weird space, I'm still the new kid at home and at school, and I feel as though I am changing rapidly. All these changes can be exhausting like bones growing, but the most important thing is that I am truly happy. I was thinking of all the sadness over the last few months (mostly in the last 6) that have been so incredibly difficult to swallow, I felt as though I would die. Depression runs in the Fox family and I have successfully been able to avoid synthetic medications thus far. But there is definitely a big struggle when it comes to depression, it got pretty bad there for a while but after listening to Heavenly Father's suggestion's I was able to overcome the worst of it. Though I am changing, I feel more independent than ever, and the world is beautiful again. Even though art school is really stretching my artistic side by making me think in asymmetrical shapes and seeing negative space (and kind of freaking me out to be honest) at night I lay in my bed and think to myself...."can I hack this? Could I be good enough?" It's quite scary but rather refreshing but mostly exciting thinking of the possibilities and roads my life could take.

My roommates are perfect for me, the are incredibly righteous women (which I need around 'cause I tend to fall off the turnip truck..if you get my drift) we were at church on Sunday in the Clyde building on BYU campus and my roommates kept talking about a big fish they were going to show me. I agreed and forgot because I had no idea what they were talking about, after Sunday school we went to the basement and there were fish tanks with fresh to salt water creatures swimming around in their little worlds just for me, and big, heated rooms where they were growing things. That's when I really knew, these girls are perfect for me. The owner of the house Heidi said I could do whatever I wanted in the back yard, I have many plans which I will discuss later when I have more time, my photo class starts soon.

Life is good now, and peaceful. I just have to master the art of appreciating life and enjoying it without worrying when things will get stressful or sad again. Things are remarkably balanced, I would not have enjoyed this so much if they hadn't have been for so long. It's a whole new season for me and I am ready!