catching up

This semester is incredibly hard, I'm not complaining I'm just merely astonished that I am handling it...well sort of.
I love a good challenge however for some reason, I cannot for the life of me understand math, I get the steps and I can do it with prompts but testing doesn't allow prompts. There is a program I can take that will help me to just test out of math, I hate to admit that this may be my out. The teacher shows us once how to do the problems then moves on to the next section, we cover 1 chapter a week each with 5 sub-chapters. I don't quit I always push through and come out ahead in the end. I'm worried about passing this class, and it's taking up all of my time and leaving little for my other assignments that I am just barely getting done instead really learning. I feel so dumb! I get so tired of it.

I'm not giving up just yet.

In my watercolor class I feel a healthier challenge, I don't particularly like the medium but I'm learning to work with it. It's amazing what you can do with little color and wet paper, the color seeps into the fibers and fades a look I could never achieve with any other medium. After today's painting I am beginning to like it more, our teacher admitted to us today that he doesn't need to teach, but does because he loves it. He has thousands of comic books from the 40's that he sells. He makes more in a week than a whole year working at UVU. Cool huh?

I love the temple! I have the most amazing experiences there, I went with some friends on Friday and got the chance to feel God's love for me. I know it seems cheesy but with all the stress around me all the time it's hard to have that love with you. Sometimes it just doesn't come naturally. He likes you to see it out, and I like it too. I was released from my calling on Sunday, I had asked to be. I know it's un-kosher to do such a thing, but I really felt it's what I needed.  If anyone has a deep understanding of free agency it's me, I have made hard choices in the past, I have watched others make choices too. I  chose one life over another. I will never regret my decision, I know this is the right place for me. I am so thankful for this gospel, I often think of where I would be without the church. I am so thankful for all my friends new and old who take care of me, and I am thankful for them too for letting me take care of them. And accepting me in all my emotional, awkward, hot tempered madness.




While at the concert I was seriously debating a mo-hawk.

30 Seconds to Mars!

On Saturday I went with Summer to a real life rock concert. I had never been before so I was pretty excited to see what went on. We got there late (just in time) and on the floor. They only let so many people on the floor and the rest needed to stay up in the stands. Later, I was grateful for this! The first band was the New Politics, I really didn't like them at all. Then Neon Trees which is a local band that is more popular now and tours with 30. Then 30 came!!! There was a long wait in between sets but it gave us a chance to meet people in the crowd, we were all packed in so tightly that people were resting their hands on shoulders of strangers and all breathing the same stagnant air. The smell was sweaty and humid, I was up front in a very tight space ensconced in people. My hair was drenched, make-up running down my face, and I had the biggest smile. Before 30 came on they requested all the people in the back bleachers to move off to the sides, we were pretty confused as to why and figured Jared (lead singer/hottie) would be running through the crowd, he occasionally does crazy things like that. So we split the crowd down the middle! He didn't run down the middle but I got a neat picture!

Here are the best pictures I could get with little lighting....

New Politics

Neon Trees

 The crowd!

It was hard to stay standing, people would push from one side to the other I felt like I was in fleshy quick sand.

Mosh pit. A poor display of testosterone.

Splitting the crowd

30 Seconds!!

Jared invited a whole bunch of people on the stage! It was pretty neat, and I got closer.

OK so This guy was protecting Summ and I, we nic named him wolverine because he would just throw kids off to the side! There were huge mosh pits forming, one girl broke her nose. He was much cooler when he kept his shirt on! BLEH.

I know I look excited.I really was nervous and grossed out.

Good Bye Summer the Season!

I love you Summer! You provide us with warm days, sweet songs, and stinging skin.
You leaving feels like my favorite person that has overstyaed their welcome, Im happy to see them go but want to see them again soon! Or maybe after a big party with great food, family and friends, you're left with a big mess to clean up, but would do it all over again.

Things Ill miss:
Barfoot in the garden
Fresh veggies
Free Time!
Swimming outside
Just being outside
Summer storms
Dinner groups
Twilight nights
Sprinklers
Parades
Fire works

Until next year....


These pictures were taken by Rob and I last weekend, my J'nessy was sick so Rob was kind enough to go swimming with me even though he REALLY didn't want to!

I am scheduling this post for exactly 3:09 am on September 23, the autumn equinox.

We played with scarves!

Holga! Holga! Holga!

I got my first roll back from being developed! I ordered a Holga camera a month ago and recieved it a couple of weeks ago. Since the film is pretty expensive (I only get 12 shots for 5 bucks) and it's expensive to develop I had to take special care in what I was shooting. Overall I am very pleased with the results, some were taken at work and some at school, the two places I am at most.

Double exposure

Tanika, she's in my art class, and if you look closely Scott's in there too. I must have forgotten to wind the film!

Orchard

School, this girl had just told me my backpack was open.

 Rad Seagulls!

OK seagulls

Ballroom

My friend Lindsey, like Tanika they are both in my art class.

This one is my favorite! This is Professor Meyer my art teacher..