More AZ pictures

A while ago I went to Arizona to visit my family and friends. I didn't really blog about it because I feel that the pictures themselves can say more. All I know is that I discovered two very different sides of both my parents and my best friend. I realized my mom and dad love each other more than I ever thought. Even though there has been a lot of mistakes made and harsh words thrown like fastballs in a cage with no bat. I forgive them, I hope they can forgive me too, I am thankful I have the family I do even though I complain about them often.
My best friend is very different than me but she is seriously my anchor. We may have had a few tizzy's but I made the observation that she is a real wife and mother and her role is changed. She can be both my friend and a wife and I am thankful she can balance both things so spectacularly. I hope she realizes how magnificent she is everyday and to know that she is so balanced even if she doesn't feel like it.
 I truly admire her.

As for me? Well every time I go home I hope to have some kind of deep realization that I am all that my parents think I am. I put on a show and pretend to be the good daughter, the one who has her head on straight and doesn't have breakdowns. The one who doesn't need therapy despite the fact that most of my immediate and extended family swear by it. I have to be the strong one, I always have been. Ever since I was little and especially since Emily was born I was forced to grow up quickly and make big kid decisions. No wonder I am so independent and clingy at the same time. I think as I get older I am finding treasures within my family, old friends and most of all myself.


Amy got up early to clean my car before I left for Utah, she said she remembered me saying that if my car was clean it ran better. The trailer was on the way home, it has as tree and a road on it!

Gleaning with Alena, she was totally into it! She would run out with me and swipe fruit, she sat there in the car an ate the whole thing of grapes before we even got home. The other pictures were some pomegranates that I knew grew wild by our old house in the alley.

I spent a lot of time on the trampoline with Amy's girls. This day was with Scarlett, we had fun but she is so high maintenance! AND SO CUTE!