A page in my book is turning...

This Last week has been a big page turner for me, I have decided to try and make more friends because I am just not being stimulated socially like I used to. I have become a sort of recluse drowning myself in self pity and obnoxious behavior towards my friends and those who love me most. I have learned in my 10 or so years of being on my own that only I can change my life and make it into what I want it to be. I go through these periodic changes ever 6 months or so. Last night I went to my friend Marcia's to play games and meet an entirely different group of people, and I love it of course I had everyone laughing and felt like the center of attention which I do love! She always invites me to do things but I am always busy being anti-social and unhappy. Second on my agenda is get back to the gym on a regular basis I need to schedule days so far it's Monday, Tues, Thurs. I need to stick to this even after my horrible experience with the personal training assessment last Thursday which included the guy telling me something like this:


Personal: well I'm just concerned with heart disease and diabetes
Laura: I'm really healthy I just need to tone up really
Personal: *gives unbelieving look*
Laura: Um, just because I'm chubby doesn't mean I'm unhealthy?!
Personal: Ya well I have degrees that say other wise.
Laura: ???!!! OK WELL HAVE A NICE DAY AND MAYBE I'LL COME BACK.
*leaves gym*

I am going back in about a half hour just to work out but hopefully I wont have to see that A hole. That was just the ending insult he had already insulted me a few times by comparing me with a slender girl and looking at me like I was a slug. I have been quite happy these last few days with my new changeling attitude, I feel better and even bought some new winter clothes today that I am pretty stoked about. The garden froze. I am pretty upset, we worked super hard on keeping it alive and one swoopy arctic wind froze them silly, Andrew and I got into a spat over it because I wanted to cover the remaining plants and save what we could and he wanted them to just freeze and die, I didn't take that very well and might have slammed the door on my way out. I am a passionate woman! I just don't see the reason for things to die earlier than they should, it wouldn't have hurt to try. Too late now they're dead, maybe next year we will be able to have better luck, I have learned more than I hopped for with my first garden, our strawberries were just starting to produce yummy bits of goodness even though we had to share with the birds who would eat half of a strawberry I would still eat the other half, they were delicious because we grew them! I am trying hard to continue at the farmers market, we have 4 weeks left and I am struggling keeping up with the demands of sewing and painting some weeks I work tirelessly and then meet and sell no one! It is a lot of work and sometimes just isn't worth it even though ladies at my work have bought my bags and their friends want bags etc. I am seriously thinking of setting up an etsy page and seeing if that works out in a positive way. OK off to the gym!

I noticed today that my camera is broken, well the screen is cracked and I cannot see what I am taking a picture of, the pictures up today are the ones I took blind. It will have to do until I can get a new one, blast.

School is great I love my classes and I am planning on taking more next semester, I love learning to write and argue properly and I love knowing exactly what is going on during earthquakes in Indonesia and Samoa thanks to geology, which were all on different subduction plates by the way and had nothing to do with each other...COOL HUH!