Confessions

In Sunday school on... Sunday, we were taught the story of bathsheba and David and all the naughty thougts that had come before the "deed".  This picture came to mind, the teacher used it in her lesson.


Can I just say, Who painted this? It looks like a 4 year old did it, and David looks uber creepy!

The lesson was brilliant though, and it got me thinking. I love men, I really do. I am most comfortable around them in fact probably a little too much.

I may love men but I really don't know how their minds work. I have an idea but I just don't think about what I say and do and um...wear or don't wear in their presence.  Not that I have some slammin' bod, but I don't think it takes much. Especially in my sweet Provo where most of the boys are sexually quelled until marriage. That is a good, great, wonderful thing too! I am repressed as well, and yes it's hard for women. We do this because we love God and we follow his commandments. When the time is right sex is going to be awesome....

To me sex is science, it's about pheromones and the exchanging biological information, a kiss first. It's a glance here and a "Omigosh he smells really good". This gets me in trouble because I talk so openly sometimes and that may be misconstrued into something it's not. I am constantly being accused of flirtation when I thought I was just being nice. What I am trying to say is, I feel a bit guilty of saying or doing things that could have triggered thought processes that even I tend to be ensconced with. There is nothing wrong with these feelings, just control them. After hearing stories of kissing though, I realize I haven't missed it much.


Little Kiss.


From now on I think I am going to be more careful, I don't want to be responsible for making others feel uncomfortable in ways I really don't understand.

Cakin' it up with Natalie

 I mostly made cake pops or cake balls (they didn't want sticks)



Sweet Nat had a bunch of work to do and I needed to get some good cake experience in so I headed out to hang with my cool friend.

She let me do some of the fondant! I'm having too much fun of course.

This girl is a professional! I love her little layouts.

Fondant is hard to knead when it's cool but I eventually got around to getting it on a cake, I was really nervous but Nat was totally sweet about me making a few mistakes here and there. I stayed until about 1030 then I had to head home for some good sleep that I never got.

She finished the cake this morning, it looks beautiful of course

Chandelier Cakes By Natalie Peterson

It's official.

The camera's are mine!

Today I found something...

For those of you who know me best, you know that I love vintage camera's. Today I was at work feeling like a frumpy grease ball, I went upstairs to get some water and low and behold I saw not 1 but 2 old polaroids. The first one being a polaroid sun 660.

And the second a polaroid cool cam:

I nearly peed my pants, because they were in a box full of JUNK! I think my boss is going to send them off to DI or something.

SOOOOO I took them. My boss wasn't there today so I just shoved them away in my desk hoping to stride into his office tomorrow and casually bring it up. My boss is kind of a father figure to me so if I whine sweetly I'm betting I can get these from him.

 Hopefully I can get some film, I'm bidding on some right now and I will have to use it wisely because it's much more expensive than I thought.... NOT TOO BAD of course but still pricey. If he doesn't give them up then I will borrow them.

This is the epitome of instant gratification and art. I found a cool blog about taking polaroids, this girl named Sophie, and her love for them.


She had a cool photo project going on where she sent out 8 disposable lomo camera's to strangers and then had them all sent back to her in Australia.

Sophie:

"I posted 8 disposable lomo cameras around the world to 100 perfect strangers... a few got lost, most made it home and the yellow camera... the last of the weary travelers is on its way to the second last person on a list of 12...Each camera was assigned a color and 12 strangers. Each random individual had to take two photos of something predominately that color before passing it on to the stranger below them on the list... the cameras were meant to take approx 5 weeks (3 days p/person) before returning home... but that was a plan for a perfect world and we don't live in a perfect world - hence my excitement that almost a year since the cameras were posted its almost time to get them all developed and see what beautiful treasures they hold"

I love people.

Check out her blog...

she's an artist too!

Cake class

In this class I have learned to make flowers out of frosting. I have also learned that when you are in a classroom full of Mormon moms and newly married 18 year old's you can't say whatever you want and not be judged by everyone around you. Everyone put on a face and pretended to be...well perfect. Because I was myself I felt a little trashy, but I made them laugh most days. As usual I was the class clown and I am comfortable there. I don't regret taking it, but I don't think that this is the path I want to go down. Way to frilly for me! I need more diversity! If I ever open a bakery, I will make naughty cakes...Oh probably not but it's fun to toss around.

Last week I was pretty tired and stressed and couldn't quite get the pansy right so I vocally threw a fit, the woman sitting next to me was also very vocal in telling me how easy it was for her to make pansies and how much she loved them with 10 perfectly sculpted flowers stretched out in front of her. She also reminded me of her abs and how they hurt so much because she had been working out.

Laura: "I'm glad you work-out. We uh, all need exercise."

What is it about women, where we feel the need to one up one another? Why didn't that woman show me how she got those pansies so pretty instead of making me feel like a toad?

Here is why:

The natural woman had taken over, I let it happen to me all the time. First the opportunity, spark, and then flame. It always hits me later though that I let that sort of thing take over instead of catching it when it happens, it's all part of being human.

But really ladies! I don't care that your abs hurt GUESS WHAT so do mine! Mostly because I flopped my entire body numerous times on a slip in slide but it doesn't mean I am better than anyone.


(not me but I am in the background)

I rocked the lily though, the woman couldn't quite get them to look like mine and I'm not going to lie, it felt good to do something better than her.

My last class is tomorrow night. I am debating on going or not, mostly because the cake I made fell apart and I don't have time to make another.

I am so excited to just help Natalie and learn from her, it will be much more fun and I can say what I want!

BANGERANG!

I also got my camera back today, it takes pretty pictures again!

 And documents my mishaps.

Copyright infringement?

Meh, I don't think I'll have a problem. Mostly because I'm not selling it. My friend Rob asked me to paint this for his wife, since their thing is the movie UP. This is the painting Ellie did behind the fireplace. It was hard to do exactly because I was using oil and that tends to want to blend instead of blocky colors like the above picture.

Hmmm I should have added more swirls.

I think it looks OK, everyone else thinks it's my best work...I don't know how I feel about that since this isn't my work.

Love you guys!

Headbands.

I will be a happy woman if I never make another headband again.

There is a fashion here in Provo of singey flowers in hair. Ann and I decided to make one for every adult girl at ATEC. We made 35 in less than a week with little extra time here and there.

 I caught Jacob weeding later in the day...

Mont and Harold, I love watching my guys interact with each other. They will literally sit around and BS with each other..it's awesome.

My beautiful Gina.

My boss really likes diet coke, she leaves her cans all over her desk.

Brock and Frankenstien Cassanova

Last night I was invited to an outdoor concert here in Provo. One of the many things I love about this town is the fact that there are so many talented people willing to perform music, comedy, or whatever else they have got going on! I remember when CTL ALT DELETE (my old comedy troupe) would perform for anyone who would hear us at any house, lawn, or awkward family parties.

Anyway Brock was the first band, they had a unique sound and the lead singer looked kind of like the guy in "what's up Doc?"  This was literally the best picture I could find.

 BROCK:

Relief Society Portraits

Here are a few of my favorites, you can see all that was taken at Skoticus's site.