well then isn't that nice.

Word of the Day: Bedgasm

A feeling of complete and utter euphoria which peaks when climbing into bed at the end of an 18-hour workday, a long road trip or hours of extremely strenuous physical activity. Under perfect conditions, the physical release has been likened to that of an intense sexual experience.

It was a three hour drive in the middle of the night, I could barely stay awake. When I got home, I climbed under the covers and had a ten-minute bedgasm.

Quote of the Day

Shawn: (in an emergency type way with no reason to be) I have got to get Ryan off the bus *runs out of my office*
Laura: Stat! Mach 11! *runs after Shawn*

Currently listening to : Make me over by Lifehouse


So on Saturday I was doing story time at borders and we were reading the book Stone Soup it's an old tale of a community who desperately needed help gaining each other's trust. It was the Asian version so there was an peace love and happiness undertone of course, but as I read it I became so emotional that I actually teared up while the people began to gain a sense of togetherness. It was funny. "I have some carrots" the old man said. "I have some bok choy" said the seamstress. " I have onions and water chestnut" said the railroad worker. That last part was a joke of course, but it started me to think about Provo and how it really doesn't have a sense of community. With all the college students and come and goers (like me) it seems impossible to do so. Enter the Carr family my close and wonderfully supportive crazy friend Summer and her family have that sense. I love going to their house it's old and falling apart in places, it's full of clutter and really old green carpet. There is always fresh vegetables from some garden (in the summer of course) and a big hole in their basement wall that you crawl through and find a huge dirt pit full of old toys from 20 years ago, you of course need to dig to find these lost treasures of old happy meal novelty's. There in the basement is a wall full of home canned food consisting of peaches, apricots, beans ect. They have an old dog named Toby who barks at me every time I come in even though I have been there a million times and walk him regularly, his breath is horrible but I love him because they do so much, mangy old dog. Her Parents are always out at friends houses or her uncle's who lives across the street and has the biggest tree, best raspberries, and the best plums with a lock of hair from his son who past away years ago buried at its roots I'm convinced that is why the plums are so good....mmmm love.
They have the craziest stories from the I think at least 30+ years of living in the same spot, they are friends with all the people who live around them and they all share the love, gardens, pain, financial burdens, heartache, new babies, new grandchildren, happy times, death and broken hearts (thanks momma Carr) I feel so warm and welcome there, the spirit is so strong with that family and I can only hope to have a wonderful family like that someday. I feel like they kind of teach me how to have a strong family since mine seems to be in crumbles like the dirt pit with hidden truths and lies. I want so much to be happy with whatever decision I make in life, times are hard and I know what it is like to tighten belts (figuratively speaking) I am seeing an increase of people losing jobs and times get so tough and I am thankful I don't have a houseful of kids to worry about as well. I still want a houseful of kids! maybe after the recession haha. I think we need to be more involved with our community there are quality people out there like the Carr family we can all get to know and love!

Sabor de Solidad

Word of the Day: Voluntold

The exact opposite of volunteering. Always used in reference to an unpleasant task to which you have been assigned by your boss.
Example 1: Co-worker 1: I hear you got a transfer. Co-worker 2: Yeah. I didn't want to, but I was voluntold.

Quote of the Day:

Laura: I think Bootstrap's dead.
Lani: GO CHECK! WE CAN'T HAVE A CORPSE IN THE HOUSE!
Laura: Tell that to the basement demon! The whole house smells like dead bodies.

Currently listening to: No Questions Asked: by Fleetwood Mac


So in order to properly pay for my excursion to Jamaica and other awesome places but mostly Jamaica (only 'cause Logan talked about how cool it was ) I have taken up a third job. Now it will only be maybe 2 days a week. It will be for a company I worked for before and it pays pretty well. I will be a life skills instructor for some girls with disabilities of whom I still see once in a while so it will be like hanging out with my buddies! So let me explain the name of my blog, I have watched way to much 30 rock this weekend and if you know the show the main character Liz was eating a specific brand of Cheetos called sabor de solidad and both Lani and I were baffled at the meaning so we looked it up and it literally means "taste of loneliness" we died laughing and I could not stop thinking about all the other food in the world that could have the same title. Ice cream, cake, mac and cheese! not sushi though sushi rocks. Have I mentioned that on the cruise ship we might have a sushi bar??!!! I'm in love with that idea! Today I was at Highland Elementary in Highland and I noticed a group of small children getting on a bus. The snow is fairly deep there but 2 small girls decided to take a "shortcut" thru the snow. They both were so small that the snow nearly engulfed them up to their knees and they of course fell down and got all covered in snow debris, I laughed pretty hard as I watched them fumble back to the bus brushing off the remaining snow with their cold red hands. I thought about it a bit and thought that if their mother had been there she would have encouraged them to walk the long way around on the sidewalk than make the mistake of trying to gallop thru the snow, but the girls made that decision and paid for that mistake with wet pants. I am the same way I guess I need to continue making mistakes and taking chances, eventually I learn something.

junk music

Word of the Day: Mall Feet

The condition of having unusually intense aches and pains in the feet due to exposure to shopping malls. Most commonly presented in males, presumably due to two factors. First, there is an inherent inability to withstand the excess gravity resulting from the densely packed merchandise. Second, females often burden males with the charge of carrying gratuitous quantities of purchases far greater than the typical wallet loading.

There is no cure, though treatments may include reclining chairs and bottled beverages.

"Honey, you don't need any more bags. Let's go. I'm really tired, and I've had mall feet since the food court."

Quote of the Day:

"Laura! you missed it! Little Debbie was choking and her teeth fell out! " ~Lindsey

Currently listening to: The Devil's Paintbrush Road ~ Wailin' Jenny's

Book Review: Female Brain by Louann Brizendine

I found the book very interesting as she contrasted the difference in brain functions between men and women. I found myself using the words Oxytocin and Progesterone more often than I like to admit, I am now telling my pregnant co-worker what kind of chemical changes are going on in her brain as well and my friend who just broke up with her boy but can't stop making out with him I informed her she was addicted to the hormones that were being released and it was ok that she kept going back to canoodle because we all do it at some point in relationships but not to become a doormat. Very good read and informative. The next book will be Animal, Vegetable, Miracle by Barbara Kingsolver


I was thinking about how much I love music today, trying to fill in the blank spaces of my mind with perplexing thoughts of such things. I was thinking that there is a difference to me in music on the radio now days. It feels like I am listening to junk food! There are all the busy sounds of Rap with cell phones going off and police sirens, and how country music just sounds like pop music with a banjo or fiddle thrown in. I prefer folk music above all others, it sounds more homemade and worked for. Like the people making it actually thought about what they wanted to say. They wanted to get across a message to someone or bare their soul about a life expiereince, I love the Wailin' Jenny's they are 3 women who mesh their voices in such a way that sounds fabulously haunting. If you apprieciate good music I suggest you look them up!!
I cannot wait till spring! I am going crazy I miss the sun so bad, I feel like I'm wilting in a way I need pizazz! I keep having daydreams of summer days and nights walking barefoot everywhere and wearing skirts everyday. In my daydreams my hair is longer too I love how as humans we anticipate change. I was listening to a talk a few weeks ago and she was talking about how we view change like turning a corner, you see the corner coming and your like "I'm gonna do it this time! I'm going to change!" then when you finally do go around the corner you can't see anything but the corner behind you and bam! you're changed. I feel like that right now, I can't believe how amazing my life is right now and couldn't ask for more! I am so happy. Also I have ideas and wants to entertain I can do anything I want!

shy

Word of the Day
FRENEMY:
Someone who is both friend and enemy, a relationship that is both mutually beneficial or dependent while being competitive, fraught with risk and mistrust.

Listening too
one love~Bob Marley

Quote of the day: "Take that you cookie cutter trophy wives! Go home and eat your Prozac!"~Laura Fox

So I have been thinking about a fantasy trip to travel from Texas to Louisiana and try the different BBQ places that litter the south. They all claim to be the best in the nation but I would really like to see and taste for myself. Apparently BBQ is completely different from "Grilling" I find that I am more partial to grilling it is lighter and easier to do. One of my favorite recipes is grilled peaches, you take a peach cut it in half take out the seed and place it on a hot grill, sear it till the peach has sweet lines then remove put a dollop of cream cheese and drizzle with honey, top with an almond, soooo good om nom nom.

I have decided to try new things I have always wanted to sew my own skirts and bags, Summer said her Grandma might have a sewing machine I can have which made my day. I have a painting in mind that I am really excited to start if I can find the time, it's a nude though not entirely, just the backside of a Tahitian girl bathing in a river, the lines of her body are simple enough that I can sketch them before I apply paint. If anyone is interested in it after I finish it and when I get sick of looking at it I will give it to you. I am going to have a small herb garden (I figured I would start small) I have always wanted to grow things but never really had the space to do so. there is something so charming about herbs hanging upside down in your kitchen drying out not to mention they smell delicious! So I will try those new things and Vamp up my skills "purrr"

Inauguration day

today So I made my clients watch the inauguration today some of which were less than thrilled of the development mostly because they didn't get to watch a cartoon or funny movie. I was interested in the faces and behaviors of people mostly Obama, the song that was played right before he was sworn in was so beautiful and well done. I couldn't help but to notice his face, he seemed so calm and collected but was he really? I then put myself in the person of choice's shoes and try and feel what they are feeling at that exact moment, would I soak it all in or only pretend to? would I be worrying about my speech or am I confident that I have it all under control because that's what America expects; an in control new president full of hope and change. He did pretty well as he was sworn in a few stumbles here and there which I loved, yay he is human too! The speech was gorgeous and gave me chills even though I didn't vote for him I respect that he will fulfill his duties, especially now that he is not only a new very popular president but an icon for alteration. Not to mention that they have paper dolls of his whole family and interchangeable outfits (which I find ridiculous) so he is officially a superstar too. WOW talk about pressure to not only make the right choices and decisions but to choose the right outfit to wear. Prada hunny? Maybe Armani for the big signing of a bill? I never have cared much for name brands, but I guess it is important to some.


On a lighter note I am helping my good friend Trevor (who also works with me) with his Long boarding competition he is hosting in February and September. Because I am CPR/First Aid certified and I can point a camera and take a picture they will be able to use me in various places. I am not really into Long boarding but I find it fascinating enough that I can be a part of something that is big enough to attract people from other states. He also needs some marketing ideas which I also have experience in, so If I want to I can be a big part of this which I kind of want to do, as if I don't have enough on my plate. Whatever makes the time go by quicker, I'm tired of cold weather. So I'm off to find a notary and run other random errands.


blogging is therapeutic.

liberating

I have currently started to write stuff down online, I have mentioned before that I don't like blogging mostly because I'm sure nobody would read it even though friends have expressed interest. That would mean I would have to know the address of my blog which I don't really. I was thinking that this is actually quite liberating knowing that no one really will read these that I'm just writing things down and posting them in the dark, and only I can flip the light on. Not to mention I am horrible at English and so unless you get here accidentally and are from Sweden or something looking for your cousin Lalo.

I have been dealing with my insecurities lately over the past couple of weeks, my family for one is a hard one for me to (dude this has auto save cool) figure out I have always been the glue that holds it all together and my family means the world to me but they are less than thrilled to feel the same about me I feel. I think they think I am a religious snob or something because I do live a certain way no drugs, alcohol, energy drinks and so on, they are LDS but are currently inactive which is hard for me right now because they have been doing so well the past 5 years or so. In my prayers I have felt that there is really nothing that I can do for them right now they need to fix their own problems and I need to work on my own and can finally stop being the parent. I love that I'm sitting in my office and my girlfriends are just hanging out with me watching me type hehe I love them.

I had a great experience in the Temple yesterday I love the Temple! It's always the one place where I feel youngest and most loved. I did initiatory and a session and that seemed to help me focus more on my prayers and get my answers again (it has been a bit dry this past month) I feel like I'm back in the game again and I feel good even though some of my relationships that I care most about are kind of lacking in luster. I don't know what I'm doing I care about this person so much but I just can't talk to them for some reason (I am still being cautious just in case no girl wants to reveal all her secrets). Anyway I just feel dumb and clumsy and I'm pretty sure he is upset with me for a couple of reasons and is ignoring me so I will leave him alone for a while maybe they will come around who knows but I have faith that it will work out for the best.

I have a lot of things that I am involved in I kind of have artists block or something I can't finish a painting that I started so I need to work on that. With work and work and more work hangin' with my buds I have been a busy Gal!

yeesh now im interested in strawberry gum

when I said I hated blogging I was serious but when I mentioned to friends that I now have a blog they seemed interested so I guess I have now jumped on the bandwagon so to say. This week has been hectic for me I have new staff at work to train not to mention the loss of my beloved Shad. I realized that I loved him after he left not "in love" of course but just a true friendship love that could possibly last till I see him next which may be the next life haha. I talked with my BFF Summer last night about a cruise we are wanting to take in July, it circles through Jamaica, Cozumel I think Belize and lots of other tropical goodness! needless to say I am way stoked! I am also thinking of taking a few months to teach English in China or Japan maybe Russia and the other option is spending a year in New Zealand working and living. These are just dreams right now of course and I have lots of those.

hey I have a blog now

and I probably wont use it very often I hate blogging...